I'll get business out of the way first:
Regular Monday weigh in: 359, for no change. That restaurant food from Saturday GOT me! But, it's just water gain, cuz I have been tracking calories, and know I should've lost about 2 lbs. Lots and lots of sodium, and not enough fruit and veggies. So no big deal, since it's just temporary slosh weight.
I still feel wonderful about reaching my exercise goal, and the added bonus of the earned reward. Whenever I see the soft amber glow of the Salt Crystal Lamp, it reminds me of the good feelings that come when we set our minds, and accomplish a goal (and there are times I really need a physical, in-yer-face reminder). So actually it turned out to be a great symbol to me, a daily reminder to keep reaching for my dreams.
BUT... I still have sooo far to go when it comes to learning a "normal" relationship with food. Saturday was our Christmas dinner with family at a restaurant. I had allowed extra calories for the Christmas dinner (for two days of the year actually, Thanksgiving and Christmas). I didn't go over my calories at all. At home afterwards, I was feeling so happy thinking of all the past Thanksgiving and Christmas dinners that were excuses to stuff myself. This was the first time in... ever since I can REMEMBER... that I didn't feel like *I* was the bird that got stuffed! I was feeling so grateful for that good feeling, and the progress it represented.
BUT... I now realize I have been stuck in the mindset that tells me "you have x number of calories left, so it's okay to eat". So in the evening I nibbled my way til bedtime. Carefully... not in excess of my calorie budget.
BUT... I wasn't really hungry, at least not all of the time. So obviously, this will be on my "to do" list to learn. It's a learning process, I understand that, so I'm not beating myself up... too much.
I'm glad I read Dawne's post (here) talking about "That's What Skinny People Do", eating to "just before full", and not eating if not hungry. Otherwise, I might have just skipped along feeling all smug that I stayed within my calorie budget, not aware of more work to be done!
Learning... always more to learn. I'm excited about 2010. It's a fresh new year. I wonder what I will be saying later in the year? Hopefully... "oh lookie here, at this new thing I have learned!!" I appreciate walking this journey with so many others of like-mind... I learn so much from you.
Tomorrow, I plan to talk about SouthBeach Steve's Challenge (HERE) for the New Year, "The Perfect 10". Just what I need for an exciting fresh start!
From Dr Phil's book: "Every success or failure you will have flows from that self-determined personal truth."
My verse for today: "...when he, the Spirit of truth comes, he will guide you into all truth."
My quote for today: "No one lives long enough to learn everything they need to learn starting from scratch. To be successful, we absolutely, positively have to to find people who have already paid the price to learn the things that we need to learn to achieve our goals." --Brian Tracy
Enjoy the Journey,