Hi Journal & Friends,
Today I am officially MIFFED!
Except, last night I just had to go and leave someone a comment that came back this morning to bite me in the butt!! I said "attitude is a choice, not a circumstance." Great. Miss SmartyPants had better pratice what she preaches!!
I was going to write... I am not a liar... that I hate lying. It is the ultimate in disrespect, to others AND to oneself. So I am telling the truth that I have stay within my calorie budget all week, and I did all my exercise. I did a mid-week peek at the scale... and was UP 10 pounds... that's TEN!!! Say what??!! Talk about a "circumstance" to try one's attitude!
So either I am nutso and doing something wrong that I don't realize, or I'm a liar and not staying within my calorie budget... or the Fat Fairy has been visiting me in the night!!
As far as I know, I am not nutso (??), and I am telling the truth. That leaves... ??? The Fat Fairy?? Okay, seriously, I just don't know. Can you really keep gaining THAT much water weight??
I have to admit, I am one of those that NEED to eventually see results. I have always had minor fluctuations, so that's no biggee. But this is getting reedonkulous!
Today's weigh-in: 359, for a measly loss of 1 lb. According to the calorie budget I have been on, I should be losing about 2 pounds per week, and be about 353 by now. Sigh.
No, I will never quit. It's just very tempting to feel frustrated, confused, demoralized.
But... what else is there, but to keep going?!
Okay, the Christmas Challenge. This is Week 7 of the Countdown to Christmas Challenge. And after this, only 4 more days to reap my chosen reward. Yep, I made my goal this week to exercise 5 days. I can feel good about that.
Well, I have guests from Alaska coming Christmas Eve, for a Tea Party... I will focus on that. I get to meet my 2 year old great-niece for the very first time. So I am house cleaning and decorating and anticipating. :-D
And just keeping on keeping on. There is no other option for me. Nothing, not even the unexplainable will steal this from me. I will ride it out as though it were a snowstorm... hunkered down and holding on. It will blow on by eventually, and I might even get some answers. If not, at least I will have learned another lesson in sheer determination.
From Dr Phil's book: "What is true about you in your mind, you will live."
My verse for today: "Let us not become weary in doing good for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up."
My quote for today: "What this power is, I cannot say. All I know is that it exists... and it becomes available only when you are in that state of mind in which you know exactly what you want... and are fully determined not to quit until you get it." --Alexander Graham Bell
Enjoy the Journey,