My last post had this quote from Dean Karnazes:
"Run when you can,
walk if you have to,
crawl if you must,
just never give up."
Since that post I've been so sick and so discouraged, that I seriously considered "What the heck?! Why try... just accept that this is the way it is, and get on with the rest of your life."
Well, I'm finally NOT sick, and a couple of days ago I read something by Tommy Newberry that jerked me up short and made me realize that I had a serious case of Stinkin Thinkin.
Tommy Newberry is doing a 40 day "joy challenge", and I've been reading some of his posts on Facebook (link HERE). And yep, if my thoughts these last few months were to be given a grade, I'd most assuredly deserve an F!!
Here are some of the things he wrote that I found so encouraging, and helped me face my need to change my thoughts:
-The words you use today will create the world you'll experience tomorrow.
-Life will always have shortcomings but when you focus on your blessings life will feel abundant.
-In order to live a joy-filled life start thinking about what you want, not what you don't want.
-There is no need to cling to thoughts that haven't produced joyful fruit in your life.
There were many more, but that last one really stopped me in my tracks.
See, the reason I've been so sick is because the medical specialist I saw back in August did an office procedure on my foot, and he was not careful enough, and cut me. Three days later I realized I had a raging systemic infection! I am just now finally about 98% over it. I've been indulging in anger, resentment, pouting, and fussing over the "unfairness" of it. And where did that take me?? Nowhere except to Miserableville.
So... I'm over it. He was not careful, true. But he didn't do it on purpose. It was a mistake. And by me holding onto resentment is just making me worse.
I'm now trying to remind myself of this verse:
"Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus."
I've been thinking a LOT about that first phrase, where it says to BE. Be joyful. If I can BE something, I must have some kind of choice in the matter. It kind of goes along with what Tommy Newberry has been saying in his 40 Day Joy Challenge.
I like what Tommy says here: "Joy is an outward sign of inward faith in the promises of God."
Well, methinks focusing on all these kinds of thoughts will make me a lot happier and peaceful than my grumping continually about "what that doctor did to me."
"Each moment is a fresh start." --Tommy Newberry