Hi Journal & Friends,
So... which is it going to be? Friday funk or Friday fun?? This morning definitely started out with me in a funk. Yesterday started out okay, but ended up being kinda lousy.
Not only did I feel bad physically, but ...
I was tired...
I felt slapped in the face by the reality of my limited ability to exercise...
I rebelled at calorie counting and "estimated" the day, only to once again go over...
And, I was sad that it was Time... I had to make that appointment with the vet for next Tuesday to say good-bye to Dusty. Her days are not fun anymore, and it's time to say good-bye, because I love her too much to let her suffer. So Tuesday is The Day.
Yesterday was a tsunami of feelings, and I didn't slow down and process them, or even try very hard to identify them. I allowed them to barge into my home and throw a party!
Today I feel empty... like they all went home and left my house a mess, and me with a hangover!
I tried to be thankful this morning... I listened to music... but in the end God just bailed me out. :-)
I was going to post a video of the song that busted me free of this "mood", but then I remember I already did! So, I looked it up in my archives and discovered the weirdest thing. The post that went along with that video fit what I was going to write this morning, perfectly! How strange is that?!
Therefore, instead of re-hashing it all, I'll just give the link (HERE) and for anyone interested, it's all there... the video with the song, the feelings, the frustrations, the same struggles with slow weight loss and our freedom to choose our moods. Sigh. Obviously, I needed to hear my own words again, and practice what I preach!!
I am choosing joy today. I may not "feel" it yet, but I really do have a lot to be thankful for... and so, the journey continues.
We learn...
We grow...
We continue...
And we hang in there, creating our future with today's choices.
From Dr Phil's book: "If you don't require much of yourself in this area of self-monitoring, your ability to maintain your goal weight wil be weakened considerably."
My verse for today: "My purpose is that they may be encouraged in heart and united in love..."
My quote for today: "Some people wait for the future to happen. Others create their futures." --Nido Qubein
7 comments:
Awww. So sorry. It's a legitimately sad time for you with Dusty--it would be odd if you didn't feel sad. I would worry if you were breezing thru this situation all cheery--wouldn't you?
"There's a time weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance..." You'll rally when its time. Praying for you, dearheart. Deb
Aw Loretta, I am just now catching up with your blog this week. I am sending you and Dusty loving thoughts. Hang in there, you are doing all of the right things. The song is so beautiful. Thank you for sharing it.
I am sorry about dusty..I am one of those people who has to 'get things over with'.
The wait till tuesday would just about kill me.
Hugs to you.
I was sitting here wanting to eat yet more sweets but I told myself that I had to read your blog first. I read it, and listened to the song and realized that the reward that is potentially ahead of me are even greater than chocolate. I'm just going to read, drink my water, blog and go to bed. Thanks for being there and being a support.
I am so sorry that you have to bid goodbye to your cherished friend. It is one of the hardest things that we as pet lovers ever have to do. Sending you hugs and Dusty a gentle pet.
iam sure sorry about dusty..i would just about die or feel like it if it was one of my cats..iam sure glad you chose to be happy..i have had one of those days too ..we have to choose our own moods or they will choose for us and sometimes its not too good..you have a great weekend..loveya,kelli
I feel for you regarding Dusty. I feel it is an honoring of your mutual love to ease her suffering, but is so hard.
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