Hello Journal & Friends!
What a week! I think it has been the hardest since I started my blog.
I was thinking last night about all of my pontificating on Dayne's question (at Coach Your Mind) of how we respond to pressure. I actually did 4 posts on it. In case anyone missed it and is interested, it starts HERE, with links to all 4 posts at the bottom.
In the four posts I wrote on this topic, I worked my way through the subject, and finally concluded that I wanted my response to be one of seeing pressure as OPPORTUNITY. An opportunity to respond with Strength, Achievement, and Spunk.
It's pretty ironic that this last week is when I got the news that they want me to come in tomorrow for that biopsy. I mean, come on, right on the heels of all this "thinking"??!!
It was a rough week, emotionally. And I wanted to EAT... boy did I ever. I came perilously close to the edge several times. It's unnerving to see how easily it can call you back, with a siren song that is very convincing.
So... this really WAS an opportunity to see what I really believed.
We ACT on what we believe.
We find out how strong our commitment really is... and if we really mean it when we say "I will let NOTHING--no person, event or circumstance--steal this journey from me."
Is it easy?? Not on your life.
Is it worth it?? Absolutely.
Last week, I kept hearing in my head what Sean Anderson has said over and over:
"You have to defend your journey from anything and everything that might try to derail it. You have to protect it from yourself."
"Cling tight to those motivating thoughts, defend your journey like your life depends on it, in most cases it does."
"Decide that nothing...no emotion, no circumstance, no person, place or thing is allowed to steal this away from you. I deserve this success. You deserve this success. It's too important my friend."
"One of the biggest elements is self honesty. This means calling yourself on all those excuses and rationalizations that we tell ourselves in order to feel better about bad choices. Honesty, 100%---at all times."
Last week.. heck, even last night!... I wanted to use this cancer scare as an excuse to "pamper myself". After all, who would dare call me out on it, right??!! Ha ha ha... sometimes the best thing a friend can do is hold up a mirror and tell it like it is. Friends, whenever I get squirrelly, please don't hesitate to straighten me out!! I really do want to do like Sean says... be totally honest with myself.
On the new season of Ruby last night, they said the definition of "denial" was not knowing that you are lying to yourself. So that is why I officially give permission for any of my friends here to spout off at me, in case you feel I am ever in denial!! :-)
If you haven't read Sean's blog, I highly recommend it (HERE).
From Dr Phil's book: "Get real with yourself. When conflict arises... don't panic and seek solace in food. I have the power to choose."
My verse for today: "My soul finds rest in God alone."
My quote for today: "You can't change the past, but you can ruin the present by worrying about the future."
Enjoy the Journey,