Monday, November 29, 2010

DAY 473 Still A Learnin'

Good morning Journal & Friends,

A while back I added a cool little feature to my blog that causes related posts to pop up... the little row of thumbnail pics at the end of each post called "You might also like..." I added it for ME. I wanted to randomly read what I've written, to remind me of what I am trying to learn along the way. You know, learning by repetition.

Well! Yesterday afternoon I read one that kicked my behind... OUCH!! 

It was like having a glaring light beamed right into your eyes, after you'd been walking around in twilight.

Here is one line that smacked me:

If you want to, you will find a way. 
If you do NOT want to, 
you will find an excuse.

This was from Day 136, last December 23rd. I had been slacking on exercise, procrastinating, and gave myself a good talkin' to. Seems like I now need it again!

Sure, I had torn out those stitches in my thigh. True, I had a raging painful infection in my hand. But after reading that post, I realized I had given myself permission to slack off. One was a lower body owie, and one was an upper body owie. That pretty much covers it, riiight??? Oh, poor me.

Are there legitimate times when we need to back off and recover? Absolutely. But this was not one of them, for me. It was an excuse to baby myself.

In that December post, I also wrote:

I was no longer procrastinating... I was DOING it. It feels good to finally be doing it, instead of just talking about it.  That generates self-respect. Confidence. Hope. A sense of strength and empowerment. Not the stuck-up, arrogant kind... but the feeling that if you are committed and work hard, with all your heart, then you could really, actually, TRULY accomplish that thing that you have hoped for, cried for, prayed for, wished for, longed for... that you can lose the weight and get your health and life back. 

You don't know exactly what the future holds, but you KNOW it will be an adventure, and you will be up for it. You will no longer be ashamed and hiding, and hopeless and discouraged. But you will hold your head up high, and it won't matter what others think... because you know you conquered a big monster that dominated your life for too long, and now you are free.

It's been a while since I've "felt" that kind of fire! I want that back. And if what I said there is true, then those feelings will return with the DOING of the thing. 

I want to keep DOING, until these healthy habits are just that... habits. Routines that are so ingrained, they sort of run on autopilot. Then I'll know they are really are part of my life. They will BE the New Me. 

So for now, I am practicing up on Being the New Me.  Repetition, repetition, repetition, repetition, repetition, repetition....

(For complete post "Stop Procrastinating... Tomorrow" click HERE)

From Dr Phil's book: "It is what it is... deal with it."

My verse for today: "I will walk about in freedom, for I have sought out your precepts."

My quote for today: "The most handicapped person in the world is a negative thinker." --Heather Whitestone, first Miss America with a handicap--she is deaf

Enjoy the Journey,



Dawn said...

I am going through somethi.g similar right now too. Im not sure what has me in such a funk except maybe this year has been to harsh to me and I feel like I have earned the right to self sabatoge :(

Anne H said...

Twins, again, Loretta!
I re-read my early blog and
it does tend to give the 3rd Eye
a great big poke sometimes.
That's good, though, right?

Mrs. Crumpet said...

Loretta!!! You have done so well, you went from 460 to 328 lbs, I am just going by the ticker thing and that is amazing!! You CANNOT stop now, I wont let you and I dont think anyone else will either. I love your quotes, you keep going, I am rooting for you!

Mrs. Crumpet

Anonymous said...

I'm glad you're feeling well enough to type. I am still unable to sit at the computer (At the moment, Im actually on my knees at my desk!)so my visits to blogland are brief. I just wanted to check in on the off chance that you were able to post to see how your hand was doing. Like I said, I was glad to see that you're able to work the keyboard. You've been in my prayers.


Leslie said...

Wow. Great post, and great quote from last year. You're anthem of repetition is a strong one...doing the next right thing again and again is like working a here-to-fore atrophied muscle that needs to be used continually to build back up. I needed to hear this.

I was also struck by your ticker - you're over half way to goal! Remarkable.

PJ Geek said...

'you said it all...all i can say is--me too

Dizzy Girl said...

Just what I needed to read Monday AM!!!! Now I can get myself to the gym- perfect. :) THank you Loretta and I hope you have a wonderful day and revel in the journey too!



dailyseeking said...

Thanks for your comment on my blog; I have stopped watching as much news--it's too negative. A constant diet of this was dragging me down, clouding my view of what was really happening.

M Pax said...

I am in a funk. Thanks to reading this, I will go work out today. Thank ees. :D

I've just not been in the mood for much. I suppose that has to do with my emotional whammy earlier this month. I still feel sad. I force myself through the motion of my routine, but 'forcing' is what I'm doing.

I suppose in time, it will wear off. An internal owie is no excuse either.

MargieAnne said...

Now listen here Miss Loretta you have infection, you have a painful leg, are you getting the right kind of rest?

I think this is a time to build the fire and get it ready. In a few days you'll be on fire but not much sense in starting it when you haven't put the fuel on.

What does God have to say about this?

Not what I think but what He thinks. Listen to your heart. Spend some time journalling with your paints maybe.

You'll be happy with your progress before you know it.


MargieAnne said...

Oh dear, that sounds harsh. I meant it tongue in cheek.

Lots a smiles and Blessings.

Retta said...

Thank you everyone, for your supportive words.

And MargieAnne, not harsh at all. I took it in the spirit I knew you meant it, loving. And ya know... I had forgotten that my sleep has been so terribly non-existent lately! You are right about that.

I like how you said to Prepare the fire now, and at the right time I will be able to DO it. Love that! Very motivating, actually.

And God has been so kind, showing me how to draw back and re-group, and what specific mistakes I made. And yes, try as I might to NOT let it, I did allow Jim being here 24/7 for two months to wreak havoc on my routines and with my thinking. I knew it, watched it, yet did it anyway. :-{

I'm definitely working on that, and from where I get my input and influences. It takes work and paying attention to keep this plane on it's course! It is way too easy to drift off course... ack!

I am feeling better, and the antibiotics for my hand have even helped stop the infection that was starting in my leg where I tore out the stitches. So, it's all working out for the good. :-)

Now if I could just think up a good excuse to avoid the first of the month weigh day!! Okay, just kidding, I'll do it even if it kills me, LOL! (it will definitely kill some pride, ha ha ha)

Thank you,

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