Hi there Journal & Friends,
I read a post by Dawn at Fixing Myself Thinner last night that got me to thinking.
She was talking about stopping to smell the roses, and don't get so caught up on where you want to be, that you fail to appreciate from where you have come.
And she is right! There IS a time for all things, and definitely a time for that.
But as I read her post... cha-ching! It occurred to me that I abused that concept. Lately I've been coasting too much on "oh, look what I've accomplished", and lost my fire.
I want to rekindle the fire, the passion, the intensity, the DESPERATION
that empowered me in the beginning. I NEED that energy. I am only halfway done with a LONG journey.
I think I went through a phase where I NEEDED those pats on the back... from myself and from others... for what I have already accomplished. Something in me needed it... proof that it was real... that I really did it.. that I can STILL do it some more.
And affirming that I am not just a fat, lazy slob, a loser... and that people--and myself--can look at me with respect because I actually DID something that was worthy of respect.
Well, I've had a couple of good nights sleep now...and it has made a HUGE difference in how I feel.
I WANT to try harder.
I WANT to work at this.
I WANT to face down those feelings and not use my favorite anti-anxiety medication: food.
Ha ha ha...don't ya love that all-too-accurate description?? We can thank Deb for that great phrasing. :-D
So, my mandate to myself is: Enough with the smelling of the roses, already! Let's get ON with the journey!
Enjoy the Journey,