Thursday, November 4, 2010

DAY 448 Hot 100, Enthusiasm & Deja Vu


Hi there Journal & Friends,

It's hard to believe this will be our 6th Hot 100 update! We only have about 57 days left til the new year arrives! 


I like having the Hot 100 countdown clock in my sidebar... for some reason I keep thinking I have all this time, and haven't been giving my best effort. Time to push!

My goals were calories, exercise and vitamins. This week was a smidge better than last week. But I know I can do better. I had to stop being rebellious about writing down all my calories... and admit I still NEED that tool. Obviously, I haven't learned what I need to learn yet, in order to keep a check on quantity. My weigh in Monday proved that! 



I was thinking a couple of days ago, about enthusiasm. It's cool when you feel it... and hard to drum it up when it's just not there, for whatever reason. I'm talking the genuine article, not the "fake it til you make it" kind.

When it's there, everything seems easier... 
I WANT to do my exercises. 
I WANT to stick to my schedule and not goof off. 
I WANT to challenge myself, and reach higher and do more.

But when it's NOT there... well, ever push a rope up the street?? As I thought about this, honestly it kind of scared me. I felt like something was wrong, I felt like a balloon with a slow leak. And I didn't know what had caused it, or how to fix it.


So, I just go on. 
I DO. 
I CHOOSE. 

What else is there? It's like the seasons, the weather... they change, and the sun comes out and good weather returns. In that, I have confidence.


(Jim took this early one morning. I like to call it 
"Joy in the Morning"...can click to enlarge)



Today's Peek at the Past (Yikes... this is deja vu!!!)

From Day 87, November 4, 2009:
Today I am not "feeling it". I still ache from yesterdays trick knee performance... I am tired... I just don't feel it emotionally. But even as I am tempted to sit here and throw a gigantic pity-party, I know I have a choice. Even if I have to cry as I say it, I will still say it: I will never quit. I will never give up. Even if I am sobbing, I will hold on and not let go of my determination.
For I have learned ONE THING:

REACHING MY GOALS HAS ABSOLUTELY 
NOTHING TO DO WITH "FEELINGS".

(For complete post "Feeling It... or Not" click HERE)


From Dr Phil's book: "Allowing emotionality to lord it over your behavior will cause you to fail."

My verse for today: "Do not let your heart envy sinners, but always be zealous for the fear of the Lord. There is surely a future hope for you, and your hope will not be cut off."

My quote for today: "CAN'T never accomplished anything. Life is grand, honey, if you don't weaken. Never say can't." --101 year old Elizabeth Fitzpatrick McClure

Enjoy the Journey,

Loretta
=^..^=



14 comments:

Anne H said...

Somehow - I read these quote and motivational sayings.
And I think about other people who could greatly benefit from them.
And now, today, I think "Hey - these are about me, for me!"
I think I'm starting to get it.
Push a rope up the street. Good one.
Thanks for letting me borrow a cuppa MoJo

Debbi Does Dinner Healthy said...

I have been feeling that slow leak so I GET IT!! Great motivation! Thanks!!

Deb Willbefree said...

Love this post. Love that morning picture, too!

The trees, the earth--the world we walk in is soooo black dark in it--yet, just look out and up! :D Tho the darkeness IS deep and abides long, joy shines on our face if we just look in the right direction.

Hahahaha! Can you tell that photo spoke to me? :D

Thanks, Loretta.

Deb

Leslie said...

Great post. Glad you did a little better this week and can acknowledge it, even as you also note you can do better. Sounds like being quite right sized to me!

How interesting to see that you were feeling some of the same lack of enthusiasm last year at this time. I should go back and see what was up with me! Actually I was in the Dominican Rep. visiting our daughter, and also about 17 pounds lighter than today. Oh well, that was then. This is now. We just keep pressing on. Great visual of trying to push a rope up a hill!

Lisa, motyok said...

I think there is not much in life where putting all of our emphasis on feelings is our best course of action--especially getting healthy. You are doing great, and pushing through negative feelings is what leads to success. Maybe you aren't enthusiastic right now, but you haven't quit either! Putting on a false face of enthusiasm won't do any good, but the self respect from trudging forward will. That is the authentic you with no mask, and that is a great thing...especially for those of us who follow your journey. Perhaps you are not enthusiastic right now, but you are one heck of a strong woman!

karen@fitnessjourney said...

If only we could buy enthusiasm in a bottle....I'm having some difficulty with motivation myself. I do find that when I suck it up and just do it, I feel better. Just wish I could WANT to do it initially. Does that make sense?

Stephanie said...

Motivation has been a problem for me too lately, so I understand your post. Like Karen said, it's too bad we can't buy motivation in a bottle. *Hugs*

cmoursler said...

I think the lack of want to is all over the place in blogdom. it's coming up on the holidays, shorter days and stress from everything to include the economy. We can push through though.
Good post loretta.

Twix said...

I need a cat like that!! :)

Great post and I like the quotes. (((hugs)))

Lori said...

Great post! Sometimes the enthusiasm wanes and you just have to put your head down and grind it out for a while, you know?

Karen said...

Oh - I haven't given it my best effort either! Yep, let's push!

M Pax said...

The enthusiasm ups and downs seem ever present. Yup, even for me. It seems to help to tell myself it's only temporary. Just a mood. They happen. I resort to my favorite workouts and make sure nothing tempting enters the house during those times. Then I seek inspiration.

Hope your drolldrums leave you soon.

teresa said...

I'm so right here with you!! Time to push it and make these last weeks/days really count. We can still do great things from here.
i hope you get some air in your balloon and fix that leak!!
it's a great visual and one I can use for myself too.
thanks and have a great week!

South Beach Steve said...

It would be great if we could get enthusiasm on demand, wouldn't it. It looks like a good week overall - now time to tighten up the loose ends. You can do it!

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