Hi there Journal & Friends,
It's hard to believe this will be our 6th Hot 100 update! We only have about 57 days left til the new year arrives!
I like having the Hot 100 countdown clock in my sidebar... for some reason I keep thinking I have all this time, and haven't been giving my best effort. Time to push!
My goals were calories, exercise and vitamins. This week was a smidge better than last week. But I know I can do better. I had to stop being rebellious about writing down all my calories... and admit I still NEED that tool. Obviously, I haven't learned what I need to learn yet, in order to keep a check on quantity. My weigh in Monday proved that!
I was thinking a couple of days ago, about enthusiasm. It's cool when you feel it... and hard to drum it up when it's just not there, for whatever reason. I'm talking the genuine article, not the "fake it til you make it" kind.
When it's there, everything seems easier...
I WANT to do my exercises.
I WANT to stick to my schedule and not goof off.
I WANT to challenge myself, and reach higher and do more.
But when it's NOT there... well, ever push a rope up the street?? As I thought about this, honestly it kind of scared me. I felt like something was wrong, I felt like a balloon with a slow leak. And I didn't know what had caused it, or how to fix it.
So, I just go on.
What else is there? It's like the seasons, the weather... they change, and the sun comes out and good weather returns. In that, I have confidence.
(Jim took this early one morning. I like to call it
"Joy in the Morning"...can click to enlarge)
Today's Peek at the Past (Yikes... this is deja vu!!!)
From Day 87, November 4, 2009:
Today I am not "feeling it". I still ache from yesterdays trick knee performance... I am tired... I just don't feel it emotionally. But even as I am tempted to sit here and throw a gigantic pity-party, I know I have a choice. Even if I have to cry as I say it, I will still say it: I will never quit. I will never give up. Even if I am sobbing, I will hold on and not let go of my determination.
For I have learned ONE THING:
REACHING MY GOALS HAS ABSOLUTELY
NOTHING TO DO WITH "FEELINGS".
From Dr Phil's book: "Allowing emotionality to lord it over your behavior will cause you to fail."
My verse for today: "Do not let your heart envy sinners, but always be zealous for the fear of the Lord. There is surely a future hope for you, and your hope will not be cut off."
My quote for today: "CAN'T never accomplished anything. Life is grand, honey, if you don't weaken. Never say can't." --101 year old Elizabeth Fitzpatrick McClure
Enjoy the Journey,