Last night was the Awards Banquet, and it was sooo much fun!! We spent a lot of time getting ready, putting on our costumes, glueing on his mustache, draping on necklaces and bracelets and macrame belts and flowers in my hair...etc etc etc.
The weird thing was...the closer it came time to go, the more nervous I got. I felt silly...was asking if he was SURE others were coming in costume...wanted to know if he thought I looked okay. What was wrong with me??? Why was I being so...insecure??
Then it hit me...I was flashing on another time, about 37 years ago, when I spent hours getting all dolled up for New Year's Eve. I had just had a short haircut, and had fussed with curling it for hours...got all "painted" and gussied up in a new dress. I still remember that dress: silky long caftan in a gorgeous bright flower print. We finally arrived that night at a dance club, and as we walked in the door, we passed two men standing there. Right as I walked past them, one said loudly to the other, "Oh look, a moo cow!" I buried my feelings til I got home later...and then cried myself to sleep.
So NOW I was trying not to imagine some mean person saying, "Oh look, an old fat hippie!"
I admitted to Jim how I was flashing on that memory, and he was so sweet...he said he thought I looked nice, and the flowers in my hair made me look young (he gets the Best Husband Award for that comment!). Right then and there, I DECIDED to expect to have a good time. This was Jim's night to receive a recognition pin, and I didn't want to ruin it by being self-absorbed.
We will often find what we look for...so I decided to look for friendly faces...for a good time...for a wonderful evening, and to NOT be disappointed.
Well, I had a GREAT time, it WAS a wonderful evening, and the only way it could have gotten better was if I had been successful in talking Jim into dancing with me when the DJ played 60's music....I mean, come on...he was playing "Brown Eyed Girl"!!
The music was fun, vintage 60's...the catered dinner was delicious...our tablemates friendly...the evening a whopping success! I'm glad my Good Choice Muscle was warmed up yesterday...tonite was a breeze. :-)
This evening will go onto My List...it is the first time I have ever gone with Jim to a company banquet in the 20 years he has worked there. What changed? Me. I want to live deliberately... fully... thankfully... with joy... and I am finally willing to do whatever it takes to get my life back!
Me at our table next to the bouquet they gave Jim.
Jim in his groovy get-up...minus the John Lennon shades (the room was
too dark to keep them on).
Up high on two huge screens they played the Woodstock
film all evening.
The decorations were very colorful and fun.
Lots of costumes, and bright decorations on stage
and hanging all over.
Lots of colorful flower power!
This guy won Best Costume for
a man...it was those wild bellbottoms!
Our table...we got to take home to our kitties the table
decoration: a pot of "grass" LOL!
The DJ starting up the dance music.
From Dr Phil's book: "Require more of yourself."
My verse for today: "Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing!
My quote for today: "Enjoy this meandering and amazing journey called life."
Enjoy the Journey,