She occasionally makes a list sharing how things are different for her now. I love reading her lists...they help me dream of the day when I will have things to put in my own list.
Well, yesterday I finally got something to put on a list! It will be a Mini-List, since it is only one thing...but it was so much fun to ME, that I want to record it. So here it is, my itsy bitsy First Mini-List:
I tried on the clothes that I am wearing to this Friday night's Banquet Award, where my husband will receive his 20 Year Pin from work....
AND MY CLOTHES WERE ALMOST TOO BIG!!!!
Today is our 32nd Wedding Anniversary, so this is a fun surprise, like a gift to me. :-)
I have saved this outfit for over 7 years, just in hopes that someday they would fit, because I thought they were so cute. They have never even been worn...still like new. The skirt is a light blue jeans skirt, and the top a peasant blouse with embroidery at the throat and cuffs. I was worried that the skirt, non-stretchy, would be tight and I would feel uncomfortable....and that the blouse would be tight and I would feel like 10 pounds in a 5 pound bag! But, if it were not for my extra large upper arms, the blouse would be a size too large...I really was shocked! And delighted...and elated...and giddy...and could hardly believe it! Clothes TOO BIG on ME???!!! That NEVER happens to me. It is a NEW thing. And I could get used to it...LOL!! Gimme more, gimme more. ;-)
I don't know why it took this kind of experience for me to feel like it is REAL...that I really have made progress. Numbers are sort of intangible to me...I recognize them intellectually, but they just don't reach my emotions the same way as this did. But to put on clothing, and feel it against you, and it feels LOOSE...this was my first experience of this happening on my journey.
When you are over 400 lbs, you just don't buy things that are fitted...cuz they won't FIT! You must allow for jiggle room, squish room...so you buy stuff that stretches, and has elastic...not because you LIKE it, but because you MUST. You buy whatever you can find in your size, not because it is YOU.
I totally look forward to being able to buy clothing that is the Real Me. And to be honest, I am not even too sure how that will look yet. But it sure will be fun finding out!
From Dr Phil's book: "Require more of yourself."
My verse for today: "For God does speak--now one way, now another."
My quote for today: "Know, first, who you are; and then adorn yourself accordingly."--Epictetus
Enjoy the Journey,