Good Afternoon Journal,
I checked in with Me yesterday, and have to admit that I was feeling bogged down, stuck, like in quicksand or thick mud... and like time has stopped. I don't feel depressed or down, but not UP, either.
But these are conditions of my own making...just like I make my own "weather" each day, for the most part I created my "environment" by my choices, and at the end of the week, on weigh-in day, it averages out in a tangible way...on the scale. This week I lost 1 pound, putting me at 368. For someone my size, that is okay once in while...but not two weeks in a row. I can do better.
Even though right now the results are not acceptable to me, I still appreciate the reality check. Without an objective way to "observe" my behavior, I might fool myself into thinking it was better than it actually was...because I "felt" like I was doing okay!
I have become too comfortable...been playing too close to the cliff edge. And if I don't clean up my act, I might fall right over that cliff! No excuses.... I can do better.
As I think about it...I don't want OKAY result...I want GREAT results. Life is too short...I am too large...I am not a spring chicken any longer...I will not accept piddling results!! And the only one that can change that is ME.
I visited Sheryl's blog, B*tch Cakes. What I read (here) was thought-provoking, and I appreciated it very much... just the kick in the pants I needed. By the way, I told MyGuy that when I reach my goal weight, I was getting a tattoo...he had a cow! LOL! You'd think I was getting a skull n crossbones! I was thinking of a little butterfly to signify my new life...or...still not certain, but I have lots of time to play with it.
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Anyway, focus, Loretta, focus! Okay, I need to get more CONSISTENT. That is the only thing that comes to mind as I think on this...consistency.
I like to look words up the dictionary. When I want to mull over a word or concept, I like to look at it from different angles...it seems to help me.
Today I looked up CONSISTENT:
unchanging in achievement or effect over a period of time
compatible or in agreement with something
not containing any logical contradictions
So this is my new focus...to BE those words listed above. To make the daily choices that will yield GREAT results, not just "okay" results. I can do better...I just know it. Let me re-phrase that:
I WILL do better!
From Dr Phil's book: "Your food plan sustains your commitment in the absence of emotional energy."