Hello Journal & Friends,
Yep, that time again... first of the month weigh day. Just when I had gotten back up, dusted myself off and was all set to boogie on with this journey.
What can I say?? My recent bout of "grazing" came back to bite me this morning. What did I expect??! I guess that's why it's called Denial. Anyway, this morning I was 339. That is UP from last month by 7 pounds. Sigh.
It's no coincidence to me that just last night, in my reading of Stephen Covey's book "The Seven Habits of Highly Effective People", I read this:
"The proactive approach to a mistake is to acknowledge it instantly, correct and learn from it.... But not to acknowledge a mistake, not to correct it and learn from it, is a mistake of a different order. It usually puts a person on a self-deceiving, self-justifying path, often involving rationalization (rational lies) to self and to others. This second mistake, this cover-up, empowers the first, giving it disproportionate importance, and causes far deeper injury to self."
Well, there you have it. Perfect timing to be smacked between the eyes with that truth. Honestly, it kind of scared me when I re-read that this morning. I don't want to be stuck, and go backwards any longer. I don't want to deceive myself, and make excuses, and "empower" my mistakes.
So I'm just leaving it there.
I screwed up... I acknowledge it... I am correcting it... Hopefully I learned from it.
Feeling frustrated... embarrassed... angry with myself. But also determined to continue.
Nothing else really to say! Now I need to DO, not talk.
From Dr Phil's book: "When you choose the behavior, you choose the consequences."
My verse for today: "I call on you, O God, for you will answer me; give ear to me and hear my prayer. Show the wonder of your great love."
My quote for today: "Ideas not coupled with action never become bigger than the brain cells they occupied." --Arnold H Glasgow
Enjoy the Journey,
Loretta
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DAY 536
16 comments:
I'm so sorry about the gain. I just goes to show, tho, that you are a brave and admirable woman. :) If that were not so, you would not have posted the number. Hugs. Onward and forward, girlfriend. If it wre easy, we'd all be thin. Deb
Being positive, keeping positive and behaving positively is not really that difficult when things are going well...but it takes real courage to do all of the above after a setback and thats exactly what you're doing. Good for you, that 7lb will go when you're back on track and more along the way.
Keep going you will get there
Dawn
yep....moving foward. After eating maintenance for the first two weeks. I lost a pound. a pound. I had my little snit. I put my scale away till feb 28th and am moving on.
Love the cat picture, it is a good laugh. Being up 7 lbs not s laugh of course. I just commented on another blog about 'ownership'. And I sense that ownership is what is at the core here with you. I may be wrong, you decide, but we know what we need to do and how to do it. If we accept ownership for the shape were in and what we want for ourselves, really accept it; we stand a great chance of moving off of being stuck or going backwards. Go gett'em in February!
I love the cat picture too. I feel like that cat sometimes. Put the negative feelings about your performance to the side, Loretta because it's the past and over. I love your attitude. And, no, you don't want to be stuck or fall backwards and you won't. You live, you learn. (((hugs))
Patrick is right - it sounds like you've got the ownership thing down. I have a feeling you'll make the necessary course correction and really kick some butt this short month! I'll have to look back to see if you mentioned switching the format of your post titles. I must say I like the new format!
I love that - "rational lies". Oh, my kids are going to hate that I ever read it! lol We all are SO good at rationalizing our behavior! Must run in the family. :/
Stop talking start doing...these are powerful words. Big hugs to you Loretta.
Is this your Vevie girl? Doesn't look quite the same and I'm assuming from Vevie's palace that she's an inside cat, right? Curious kitty lover wants to know...
About the lesson learned and shared, I agree totally with Covey on this one. It's so important not to lie to ourselves. Bravo to you for stepping up to this one right away! And thanks for sharing it with us, because (at least for me) it's an extremely valuable insight!
"I screwed up... I acknowledge it... I am correcting it" - That's the best thing you can do, Loretta. *HUGS* Next month's weigh-in WILL be better! Hang in there, okay?
So curious to see where you'll go from here. I have a feeling that this month could be cathartic for you, my friend.
PEACEFULBIRD: Ha ha, that flattened kitty pic was borrowed off the net.
Yes, our Vevie is an indoor kitty only. It was part of the agreement when we adopted her from the rescue shelter. She gets lots of exercise running up and down her Tree. And Jim made a wire tunnel leading outside that patio into the backyard grass, into an 8 x 8 foot wire kitty condo. In good weather they love it, and sit in the grass and twitch at the birdies, and soak up sun. :-)
Thank you so much, everyone, for such encouraging words.
It's been a tough week, with something happening that gave me such sadness... and then blammie! to get that kind of weigh-in was... well, a test of what I believe!
But there is no going back, only forward. One way or another. If I can't run, I'll walk. If I can't walk... I'll crawl. If I can't crawl... well, I guess I'll hitchhike!! LOL!
Loretta
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you are doing so well..i gained all 30 pounds back .now i am going to just start again..but you really are an inspiration..i loveya loretta..you keep going..kelli
Yay for learning from our mistakes instead of beating ourselves up about them. :o) Those 7 lbs will SOON be gone.
I would use those gone awry moments [later in my journey] as learning opportunities. I would figure out where I went wrong then how to improve the behavior next time. 'Improve' not 'perfect'. What improvments can you make to improve your chances you'll do better next time? That's how I went about modifying my less than stellar behaviiors and habits.
You're thinking about it. That's good. Don't panic. You're going to be all right.
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