Hi there Journal & Friends!
Today will be a Mulligan Stew... a little of everything (can click on any pics to enlarge).
First, I nearly had a heart attack last night when I read Deb's post, explaining to her bloggy friends why she was shutting down her blog... and about the time my blood pressure was rising through the roof, and I was formulating my most brilliant argument for her to stay, for a comment... I scroll down to read: April's Fool!!!! AAaarrrgghhh!! She got me... goood. Stinker!
But then I realized how much I care for her, and would have truly missed her... so it was a good thing to be so mercilously tormented.... mwha ha ha ha...
When I started my blog last August, I had no idea that I would care so much about people I've never met in person.. that I would feel you were my friends. I am as surprised as anybody!
I am in the process of writing "Things I Learned From My Cat". But today I will share from it the one thing that has been a big breakthrough for me. I "knew" it before, intellectually. But I didn't totally live it.
It is what I wrote yesterday: that we CAN experience intense emotions, and be okay. That is normal, it is Life. I thank my sweet Dusty for that breakthrough.
And last night, I was blessed with an "expansion" of that truth. Ruby/ScarletSimple, at A 252 Pound Journey To Being Free left me a comment that made me blink, and have a new thought. Here is what she said:
"Everything is more intense when we aren't numbing ourselves with food, and I forget that it isn't just specific emotions. It really is everything."
It dawned on me that I was only thinking of the negative emotions being more intense when we aren't numbed up with food. But really, why wouldn't it apply to ALL emotions??
To me, being an emotional eater is to inappropriately connect food in with all emotions. I ate when happy, sad, mad or glad. I ate to celebrate or when bored or anxious. It just pervaded all areas, in unhealthy amounts. It was "connected" with emotions.
Now I'm learning to keep food is in it's proper role: nutrition. Yes, it is nice to enjoy it. I DO love my morning flavored coffee!! But it is not the end all/be all of every event and emotion. It is just nutrition, that hopefully tastes nice. (Okay okay, I admit that SOME people would say that coffee is not really nutrition...)
Anyway, now I am free to feel ALL emotions fully and richly, without the numbing effect or distraction of food. All emotions, the ups and the downs, will be more intense... real... rich and full. Well, that's my theory, anyway! ;-)
Am I all wet?? Anyone farther down the road than I am, who knows if this is true?
And now for the last thing today: my Monthly Weigh In. Today I was 350, for a monthly loss of 7 pounds. That's not too thrilling, considering that on Feb 1st, I was 351, and went up from there. But, I am going in the right direction now, and have been making changes that I hope will help speed this turtle along.
I feel encouraged again, and ready to rumble. :-)
From Dr Phil's book: "For you to succeed, you have to translate this knowledge, awareness, and insight into action."
My verse for today: "Come near to God, and He will come near to you."
My quote for today: "Knowing is not enough, we must apply. Willing is not enough, we must do." --Johann von Goethe
Enjoy the Journey,