Hi Journal & Friends,
Have you ever reacted weirdly to a compliment?? I did, just recently. Someone found an old photo of me, and wanted to encourage me by noting how far I've come. It was sincere and kind, and with the best of intentions.
Here's the photo, from 1999:
Then my squirrelly thinking kicked in...
And somehow I turned it around and about 3 days later, when I surfaced back to sanity, I realized I had been thinking things like, "Wow, yeah, I HAVE come a long way... I can take a break", and "look how far I've come, I deserve a rest."
And I did. I rested. I slacked off the little exercise I was doing... I didn't count calories. Aaagggghhhh!!!!
Enough. I just can't look BACKward. I need to keep looking forward, and keep my eyes on the goal. Someday I can bask in what I accomplished... AFTER I reach goal. But I just can't open the door to more squirrelly thinking. You'd think I would be past it... but, there it is. Sometimes I even avoid looking at my weight loss ticker, since occasionally it triggers that same squirrelly response!
So yesterday I stuck to my schedule, with my eyes FORWARD. Did my Chair Boxing... lots of chores... got lots of stuff done. Today... Ditto that is the plan.
Oh, and today was the first of the month weigh day: 337. Only two pounds down. Sigh... that put me back down to where I was... last summer! It is so tempting to feel demoralized... but I am owning it. I did it. Therefore, I can change it. I will continue, and am determined to get this right.
The reality is, squirrelly thinking comes at a price!
Down with squirrelly thinking and procrastination... up with gettin' stuff done!
From Dr Phil's book: "Your thoughts powerfully program you."
My verse for today: "I desire to do your will, O my God; your law is within my heart."
My quote for today: "Never quit. Don't ever, ever quit. Recognize that stopping now, regrouping to try a new approach isn't quitting. If you quit you'll regret it forever." --Rudy Ruettiger
Enjoy the Journey,