Hello Journal & Friends,
Joey is still learning to NOT indulge her preferance for Doggie Delicacies. But a couple of days ago, when briefly out on the patio, she snuck over to the cat box and stole a nice plump Doggie Delicacy and took off running. She KNEW there would be negative consequences, but it was so irresistable she chose to do it anyway. (All together now... EWWWW!)
Well, I understand. Yesterday, in spite of negative consequences, I chose to do my own version of eating Doggie Delicacies. I overate. My goal calories have been 1599, and I had been doing excellent. But yesterday I just went kinda nutso.
Basically, I ate too much sh*t and just didn't want to know the calories. Oh sure, I stayed on plan, eating "good stuff". Just too MUCH of the good stuff. Waaay too much, as in 2764 calories worth of it.
At first I said "oh screw it", I wasn't going to add it up. But last week my Secret Challenge partner had a bad day, and she DID take responsibility and reported the numbers. So.... I appreciate her good example, and decided to be accountable too.
I'm glad I did, because I discovered something. I had been so sure it was at least twice that amount. It FELT like an abnormal amount. It didn't feel right. It was not the new me!! I was so surprised by my own reaction. And actually encouraged. My perceptions really are changing!
I USED to eat those amounts and much more on a regular basis, and it was my "normal". Now... it seemed humongous!! I am not excusing my poor choice yesterday at all, don't get me wrong. I'm just saying I was surprised at how intensely it felt wrong... not normal... weird... not like the New Me.
So... back on track today, and actually encouraged by what I learned from yesterday's splat.
From Dr Phil's book: "That's your priority. You must hold yourself to a higher standard now. You cannot be wishy washy."
My verse for today: "Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light for my path."
My quote for today: "I am still far from being what I want to be, but with God's help I shall succeed." --Vincent Van Gogh
Enjoy the Journey,