DAY476 Hot 100 Update & Other Stuff

Good Afternoon Journal & Friends,

Yesterday I wrote about my Monthly Scale Adventures, and how I said I was "over it". Uh huh... so I thought! I guess I wasn't as "over it" as I would have liked. We can say all the right things, and we can try to believe them, knowing they are true. But sometimes there is this lag time between how I WANT to be, and how I really AM still.

That's what happened to me... I discovered it bothered me more than I had realized. How did I know?? By my actions. 

Words are fine... but actions tell me what I really believe. Yesterday, after I had posted about my gain and my slow progress, I made a batch of flourless, sugar-free pumpkin mini-muffins. They were delicious! So delicious, in fact, that I blew my WHOLE day's calorie budget on them!! Aaaaagh!!!

Later I did an autopsy on the incident, to find out what happened. And yes... that's when I realized that it was still bugging me... my lack of progress these last 6 months. :-(

I was down. Sad. Disappointed in myself. And then I came here and found that my sister, Karen, had left me a poem. It was perfect. 

Here it is, for those of you who missed it:

Dear Sister:
I've seen you when you cried,
And when you tried to hide;
You'd always say you failed,
When the desired boat had sailed.
But that was yester-year,
After you shed many a tear;
A swan song now you sing,
Grasping on to everything!
You will not be put down,
Nor will you cast the frown,
You push away the strife,
And plunge straight into life!
For this you will prevail,
Though some might see a snail,
But the tortoise beat the hare-
On the race that was a dare!

Thank you so much, Karen!

And for those of you who don't know, Karen has started a sequel to her story Two Moons Over Darius at her blog Musings, Memos And Melancholy.  It's some cool sci-fi stuff. So if you enjoy short stories, you might want to stop by. Here is where to start, with Part 1 of "Two Moons Over Darius". 

Back to yesterday's post... It occurred to me that I might have offended some readers who are "smaller, younger and healthier." If that happened, I am so sorry I didn't explain better. It was NOT meant as criticism. If anything, I sometimes get a tad bit jealous of your ability to kick it in the exercise department and accelerate your weight losses! I am tickled pink when you have successes. I admire that you "get it" so much younger than I did. 

I wrote that note to my friend, who is my same age, as a reminder to her, and ME, not to compare, because our circumstances are different. I fall into the comparison trap too often, and it never leads anywhere good. So I need to remind myself. I see others tearing it up with exercise, and my MIND wants to do that too, but my Body can't keep up. So... I do what I can do.

Okay, Hot 100 Update... been a blue kind of week.

Until my Muffin Meltdown, I was doing pretty good foodwise. Exercise took a hit thanks to my hand infection, but the vitamins were better. 

Overall, I'm just saying: here's to a great rest of December!

And I'll end there, right there I'll end.

For if I continue, I shall be long of wind.

(with apologies to Dr Seuss) 

From Dr Phil's book: "When you choose the behavior, you choose the consequences."

My verse for today: "Once you were not a people, but now you are the people of God; once you had not received mercy, but now you have received mercy."

My quote for today: "So the writer who breeds more words than he needs, is making a chore for the reader who reads." --Dr Seuss

Enjoy the Journey,

Loretta

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