Hello Journal & Friends,
I am not a "writer".
Never claimed to be. I share from my own perspective... things that are on my mind, things that help ME on this journey. It touches me when something I share actually helps someone else along this journey, which can be a real bear sometimes.
Recently I said I was trying to write more "casual"... to spend less time on the computer, to just spit it out, not spending extra time at it. I'm normally a detail person, so shooting from the hip is not usually comfortable for me. But I was willing to learn.
So I admit it's frustrating to be misunderstood. Or... misinterpreted. Or, horror of horrors, disagreed with. I'm suppose I'm like anyone else... I want to be liked, agreed with...
In the real world I put on a tough, nobody-bothers-me exterior. But don't let people like that fool you... WE FEEL just like you do... we just don't let you SEE we feel it.
Yeah, I know... it's the height of arrogance to think that you will never be disagreed with... but there it is. I guess it's an insecurity thing, still lurking there under the surface, peeking out.
I know that most people who read this haven't read my archives... the stuff I wrote the first few months. I was laying out "my program". The basics that have helped me. I would take one subject, explore it, turning it this way and that, mulling it over, see how it could apply to my journey.
And I had the hope that someday it might help someone else. I'm aware that I'm only halfway in my journey... so don't have the credibility of someone who has reached goal and maintained for a time. This is just stuff that has helped ME along the way.
When exploring one topic, you can't cover around the world and back. You just can't include the whole enchilada!! Imagine how long THAT post would be!! There is always the "fine print" to any topic. There are always exceptions to the rule... variations... that right combination that finally clicks for us.
That does not invalidate the TRUTH that is the main idea. Truths that are solid and useful for everyone.
And... there are Parallel Truths. Just because one idea is true, doesn't mean the other idea is NOT true, too. There are many facets to this journey... we each must personalize it, find what works for ourself. I understand that just because I don't eat sugar or flour, that doesn't mean it's "the answer" for everyone else. You gotta find your own "fine print".
So, when you read what I've written, consider that this is just MY point of view. It won't be the WHOLE picture... I am not writing the Encyclopedia Britanica. This is just a tiny bite of the enchilada here.
Also, consider that you are viewing what I write--or anyone else's blog-- through the lens of your OWN experiences... and that might skew it some.
I never, ever claimed to know it all. I am not an expert. I am still SO learning as I go. And maybe next year I will believe the OPPOSITE of what I believe today! But this is where I'm at for now, warts and all.
This is just me, my own interpretation, my own insecurities. I'm still learning, tweaking, discovering...
From Dr Phil's book: "Be realistic about what you can control and what you can't."
My verse for today: "He is my loving God and my fortress, my stronghold and my deliverer, my shield, in whom I take refuge."
My quote for today: "You have something to say. Something of your very own. Try to say it. Don't be ashamed of any real thought or feeling you have. Don't undervalue it. Don't let the fear of others prevent you from saying it... You have something to say, something that no one else in the world has said in just your way of saying it." --Hughes Mearns, from "Creative Power", 1958
Enjoy the Journey,