I recently spent a little time reading some of my own back posts. It hit me two ways: both ENcouraging and DIScouraging. I get to choose which one to embrace!
See, I thought by now I would surely be at my goal. So when I read some of those older, positive, confident and upbeat posts, sometimes I cringe a little bit. Okay, a lot! I battle thoughts that say:
See? You are all mouth, no action.
See? You thought you had some answers, and really don't. They are only pieces to the puzzle.
See? You are kidding yourself. It's too late, you'll never get there.
See? You are losing ground physically. The clock is ticking, and before you fix one problem, you get a new one.
So, I answer each of those attacks. Some days that's easier than others, to be honest.
Here is one example, from my post about a year ago.
It was about a meltdown I had, and how it was resolved thanks to some kind words from MyGuy. And the quote I used at the end once again hit me hard:
"Self-pity is easily the most destructive of the non-pharmaceutical narcotics; it is addictive, gives momentary pleasure, and separates the victim from reality.." --John W Gardner
Ouch! A whole year has passed, yet I feel no farther down the road than that post!
Photo by Jenny Kaczorowski
On to this one, written around the same time.
I talked about treating myself with respect; attitude; not settling; I am worth it...
The post was hard enough to read, but then blamo! I get smacked with my own quote yet again! This one from Muhammed Ali, who knows a little something about struggle, overcoming, and victory:
"Champions aren't made in gyms. Champions are made from something they have deep inside them--a desire, a dream, a vision. They have to have last-minute stamina, they have to be a little faster, they have to have the skill and the will. But the will must be stronger than the skill."
And there it is. In that last sentence. "The will must be stronger than the skill."
And I come full circle back to my source of strength, to DO that will. To make those good choices. To choose to be encouraged, uplifted and keep going, no matter what. NO MATTER WHAT.
And here it is, the last quote from that page that reminded me of HOW to do the DOING part:
"I lift up my eyes to the hill-- where does my help come from? My help comes from the Lord, the Maker of heaven and earth."
Photo by Melissa Bowersock
Today, I am encouraged.
Today, I embrace gratitude.
Today, I decided not to bash myself for not being at my goal yet.
Today, I choose to embrace hope and determination.
And who knows... by the end of the day, I might even FEEL it!
Enjoy the journey (it's better than the alternative!)