Good afternoon Journal & Friends,
To paraphrase Shakespeare: To Challenge, or not to Challenge, that is the question.
At the risk of sounding redundant, let me say this yet again: This is a journey... we are at different stages, not all at the same place. I believe we need stay true to ourselves, and do what's healthy for ourSELVES, and not get distracted by what seems to be the current popular thing to do. Yup, speaking from personal exerience here. :-}
I love Challenges. I find them fun, motivating and well... challenging. ;-) And when I first started this blog, they helped me tremendously. They added not only accountability and inspiration to my journey, but also an element of fun and companionship. So, I am "pro-challenges". Heck, I've even led a couple!
Having said that, lately I find that I have turned a corner. I don't know if it's temporary or permanent. All I know is that right now, I need to do this for ME totally, not for a Challenge. Not because I have to report in, or be held accountable, or meet a deadline, etc, etc.
I've written and re-written this next sentence several times... I'm finding it hard to explain.
I want my choices to be so important,
so valuable to me that I do well
and it doesn't matter who else knows.
- If everyone else decided to never do another challenge, I want to be so dedicated to my own healthy journey that it wouldn't matter one bit to me.
- If everyone else reached their goals and quit blogging, I want to be so totally committed to reaching my own best level of health possible, that I persevere no matter what.
- If everyone else found their true joy in life and stopped focusing on weight loss, I want to feel at peace within myself that it's okay, because I have made this a priority and answer to only ME.
Okay, those are extreme examples, but you get what I mean, I hope. :-)
I remember years ago reading something to the effect that the true measure of a person is revealed not in what they did when someone was watching, but what they did in private, when they knew NO ONE was watching.
That's what I'm talking about... I want to have that kind of determination, deep down in my heart, that NOTHING will get in my way... even me, LOL! That I don't need to know someone will see my challenge check-in, but I am reporting to ME... and that's what counts the most.
Stuck on my computer is a little yellow post-it note, with these words from Chris at A Deliberate Life:
"The only thing standing between
you and victory
For several weeks now, I've watched all the Challenges gearing up for the fall and holiday seasons. And I considered joining one.
In fact, one that appealed to me the most was from Steve at Log My Loss (he requested we NOT link to him, since his site is having slow loading problems already). He is not able to personally lead the Hot 100 Challenge this year, but suggested this one: a do-it-yourself type Hot 100, referring to the last 100 days of 2011. Each person is in charge of their OWN challenge, choosing their goals and hooking up with others doing the same... deciding to end this year with a Bang.
For those interested, here is the badge for the DIY Hot 100:
But... over and over, I keep going back to the fact that for me, at this place in my journey, I want to build up the strength to stay the course without depending upon an OUTside source of motivation. I want to cultivate that INside motivation.
Like I said, I enjoy challenges. And I am all for others doing them, if that's what they decide. But there is a time for all things, and for me, it's Time to embrace this journey joyfully and independently... meaning not depending upon a Challenge to carry me successfully through the holidays. But rather, because I have declared to myself, FOR myself... that I will choose what is healthy and right because I am valuing and honoring myself.
And I feel peaceful and good about that.
From Dr Phil's book: "What I want you to focus on is requiring more of yourself, starting right now."
My verse for today: "Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing!"
My quote for today: "Figure out who you are, then do it on purpose." --Dolly Parton
Enjoy the Journey,