Hello Journal & Friends,
First, the official weigh in business: 333... again. That number is looking mighty familiar!
So... what do you do when you feel the Hounds of Discouragement hot on your trail, nipping at your heels??
All I can say, for myself is, choose to keep going. Quitting is not an option. It's more fun when I "feel" all excited and encouraged. But it's not a requirement.
I've looked at my sidebar under "The Monthly Shrink", and was tempted to rename it "The Bouncing Ball". It's demoralizing to see I am higher this August than August of last year. And embarrassing. But it's the truth.
There is nothing for me to do but keep going. I feel so close to figuring this out, and admit it's embarrassing to say that with no "proof", if you know what I mean.
For those of you that don't weigh in... I understand. But for me, I WANT the truth. The feedback. The data. For me the scale is a very useful tool, and I appreciate it. It's not a "number" that is affecting me. It's my own performance, or lack thereof. But if I hid from it, I could rapidly soar back up into the stratosphere and be in the 400's in the blink of an eye. I need the accountability and information from that tool.
This last month I spent countless hours learning to count the carbs accurately, learning to eat the right ratio of fat, protein and carbs. And now it's down to lowering the calories and yet keeping the right percentages of each. Portions, portions... Hmmm.... all too familiar. But I know it's key for me now.
I've had no exercise for over 3 months. Doctors orders. Soaring blood pressure. My new medication is starting to take effect, and that gives me hope that soon I'll get the okay to kick up my heels. It funny to hear ME say that I miss exercise! But I do. And I'm hopeful that will soon contribute to my progress.
I'm sorry this is not very cheerful... one of the things I always hope to do is encourage others. Yet I am in tears right now, and finding it hard. One thing I CAN honestly say is... always keep going. I know I am.
From Dr Phil's book: "You must have a new conversation with yourself that responds to negative messages truthfully and positively."
My verse for today: "He reached down from on high and took hold of me; he drew me out of deep waters."
My quote for today: "He who moves not forward, goes backward." --Johann Wolfgang von Goethe
Enjoy the Journey,