Not sleeping well.
Ready to give up.
DID give up... stopped trying... what's the use?
Went to doctor.
Finally SLEPT well.
Gee... maybe this giving up thing is not such a good idea.
Reminder to self (and anyone else who happens to read this):
Good Sleep is our friend!
Good Sleep is a good thing.
Good Sleep is to be protected, planned for, prioritized, FOUGHT for.
A good night's sleep, done over and over, will change how our brains function!
Like, giving us the energy to try once again.
To hope once again.
To believe once again.
I was making up answers in my head to my doctors usual question he always asks: "How are you today?"
I was all set to answer honestly with: I just feel like giving up.
The day before my appointment I saw a little sketch by a fellow artist, done of her bestie in the kitchen cutting up onions. The smiling lady was wearing a cheerful apron and funny "onion goggles".... and was on oxygen, connected to a tank. The caption read:
No matter how you feel:
Never Give Up
I cried when I read that.
I wanted to agree.
I wanted to WANT to agree.
But I was so exhausted, so wiped out, I just "wished" I could agree.
Now, after a 9 solid hours of sleep, I can smile and agree.
I think sometimes it's not just all "mental", but physical too.
Get yer ZZZZZZZZZ's! :-)