Hi Journal & Friends,
I finally figured out what's been bothering me for several weeks. It wasn't obvious... just there, in the back of my mind, lurking. It's hard to put into words. So I picked out some of Jim's photos to help me (can click photos to enlarge).
I started this journey in earnest last year in March of 2009, and then started my blog later in August. It was all fresh and new, exciting... golden with promise...
There have been a lot of nice, blue sky kind of days...
But I've also had my share stormy days, like most of us. It's just life...
I imagine the end of the journey to be a place of beauty and peace, like a gorgeous sunset...
Yet for me, that goal is still sooo far away. The newness has worn off and the end is not even in sight yet. A "sameness" has set in. I feel kind of like I am in No Man's Land... in the middle... as if this will go on forever.
Maybe this is normal for someone on a long journey. I dunno... I haven't been this way before. It's a new road for me.
When I was a kid, one summer we went on The Big Trip with my Mom. And I distinctly remember that feeling of never-ending roads stretching out before us as we drove through parts of Arizona, New Mexico and Texas. I remember looking out at roads straight ahead as far as the eye could see... and feeling like we would NEVER get there.
I suppose that is how I am feeling now. Intellectually, I realize that's not true. But that is how I feel right now.
I believe that feelings/emotions are useful clues... information to help us. So I suppose this information is giving me a message. The only one that comes to mind (other than the P word... patience) is that I need to be living NOW... to be fully present now, and living my life to the fullest each day along the journey.
From Dr Phil's book: "Slow your thoughts down, and listen attentively."
My verse for today: "Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good. His love endures forever."
My quote for today: "Success is the sum of small efforts, repeated day in and day out." --Robert Collier
Enjoy the Journey,