Hi Journal & Friends,
Today is a Liver n Onions kind of day! Since I love liver n onions, that's a good thing.
For years and years, whenever MyGuy went on one of his photographic/camping trips, it meant I got to eat whatever I wanted. Since he HATES liver n onions, it was always the first thing that went on my shopping list.
But in the past, along with yummy liver n onions, there was a long list of my favorite pig-out foods that also went on that grocery list. You know, the ones to eat while doing something else to complete the escape... like watching tv or a movie.
I couldn't go on those camping trips... I was just too big. I can't tell you now many vacations with Jim over the years I've missed out on. I would hide my hurt, and tell him I was glad he got to go, and encouraged him to have fun. When he got back, I would eagerly listen, and encourage him to tell me about it.
And while I WAS glad he enjoyed himself, all the while there was also this deep sadness... regret... guilt... disgust with myself, because I was too fat to go with him. Too big, too painful, too many special needs...
Being overweight robs us from living our best life.
It robs us of relationships and of experiences.
It robs us of energy and self-respect.
It robs our confidence to dream and believe we can achieve those dreams.
It robs us of not only quantity of life, but of quality of life.
I am no longer accepting this thief in my life. I am not allowing it any more.
This is not fate... it's not genes... it's not inevitable.... it's a choice!
And I choose to kick out the thief and get my life back!
Next year I plan on being able to GO with MyGuy on one of those camping trips.
Well, okay, I may wimp out and ask for a motel, but at least I will be able to GO!
I'll trade my yummy Liver n Onions for a vacation with my sweetie any day!
From Dr Phil's book: "Heal your feelings so that your eating behavior is no longer fueled by harmful emotions."
My verse for today: "Let them give thanks to the Lord for his unfailing love."
My quote for today: "Action in the face of adversity will always be the key to whether we achieve that something or not." --Dayne Gingrich, at Coach Your Mind
Enjoy the Journey,