Howdy Journal & Friends,
What a nutty Day! It started out frantic... overslept... MyGuy waking me to say the phone repairman would be here soon... gotta take The Streak in soon to get stitches out (from spay surgery)... wait... where's my coffee??!!!
Good griefus... I detest those kinds of mornings. I've always been a slow starter in the morning. I love a slow, quiet morning. Time to get COFFEE (notice what I put first), to read, think, look at my daily schedule and see what's up.
Today showed me I still have a long way to go in the "being flexible" department... Sigh. I was frustrated and slightly resentful that "my" morning routine was messed up. I usually write my post first, then go Blog visiting. My schedule being all bass-ackwards anyway, I decided to Blog visit first.
Now, I am glad I did. I feel quite chastened. And grateful. And touched.
I think in my busyness, I lost touch with what is true and real and important. The deeper things. I found 3 blogs that changed my whole attitude today.
1. First, I was reminded WHY I was doing this blog stuff in the first place. Here is what Sean wrote:
"Writing something everyday, about how you're feeling and what you're experiencing will lead to a better understanding of you. You'll have epiphanies along the way that happen because of this self-discovery writing. So blog or not, at the very least grab a pen and paper and write out how you feel, what you're doing, what you've done, why you've done it, and don't forget to dream about where you're headed! "
Ahhh... thank you Sean. As always, he is so generous to share what he has learned along the way. And he helps keep me grounded, and remembering my priorities. For a lot of us, this is not entertainment... it is life or death.
2. Next, I read about the life of a woman who, like me, has struggled with her weight all her life. Her story broke my heart... I just wanted to scoop her up, and hold her, and tell her all Daddies are not like that... and to tell her about my Heavenly Daddy that loves her UNCONDITIONALLY. That she didn't have to perform a weekly "get on the scale" routine to earn her Heavenly Daddy's approval.
I'm not sure if I should give a link to her blog or not... I'm feeling very protective of her... I know that sounds silly, since I don't even "know" her. But I identified with her story, and her struggles to feel that love and approval, and self-acceptance. It took me sooo many years to come to that place of feeling loved and approved.... Okay.. there are so many wonderful and supportive people here in Bloggyland. Please go love on her?? Kim.
3. And finally, I read the post of a friend I will just call MT.
She IS where I WAS.
Right smack dab in the middle of the biggest struggle of her life, to save her life, to grab hold of the answers and get free. She is RIGHT THERE, at the turning point. Only, she can't see it, being right in the middle of the storm. I know how that can feel. The desperation, the emotional/mental/spiritual pain.
Wavering back and forth between hopelessness and a flicker of hope.
A torrent of emotion. I know... I really know. I remember it, and don't think I will ever forget.
I will not give her link... her blog is private. But if you so feel led, PLEASE pray for MT. God will know exactly who you are talking about!!
I believe with all my heart that the Creator of this universe didn't just wind it up like a gigantic clock and then leave us all alone, to tick away the eons by ourselves. I have seen too much in my life to let me know He loves me and is involved in my life. And so, I am asking that he punch through the darkness to MT, and light up her life with truth. To open her eyes and show her the path for HER.
The way to freedom is not exactly the same for each of us... but I think the principles are similar.
We need a simple path to follow. I learned that from Sean.
We need to follow it consistently, regardless of how we feel. I learned that from experience!
And we need to work on the mental/emotional/spiritual part of this journey. This is the foundation for the first two... what will KEEP us going. What will allow us to heal, and find our new lives.
Sorry, this has been a mish-mish post... kind of like my day today!
From Dr Phil's book: "Choose the right attitude and the right behavior to generate the right results."
My verse for today: "He tends his flock like a shepherd: he gathers the lambs in his arms and carries them close to his heart..."
My quote for today: "Character consists of what you do on the third and fourth tries." --John Albert Michener
Enjoy the Journey,