I keep seeing the little Century Club badge on my blog.
And you know what? As weird as this sounds, as excited as I am to have finally made it to this milestone, a part of me felt it wasn't real. It was just a number. I didn't "feel" that different.
I was puzzling over this out loud, and MyGuy silently disappeared out of the room. I figured he was bored from hearing me go on and on about this weight thing again. But a few minutes later he reappeared, with the hand truck loaded up with cat litter bags and bricks! Huh??
He told me to sit in a sturdy chair, then started to carefully pack this weight around me. He said it was about 100 pounds. Yikes!! Stop!!! He didn't even get it all onto me before I felt smothered and so pinned down that I literally could not move!!!
Talk about a tangible lesson... wowee zowee!! I was stunned. I absolutely cannot believe that I was able to stand at all, let alone walk a few feet, even with a walker or canes.
No wonder my knees were excruciating.
No wonder my back gave out in 60 seconds.
No wonder I was breathless walking across the room to the bathroom.
No wonder I can't breath at night without being hooked up to a machine.
No wonder I was exhausted all the time, regardless of sleep.
No wonder I was injured at the slightest wrong move.
No wonder my body was crying out to me to DO SOMETHING before it was too late.
I can't tell you how grateful I am to finally "get it". There just aren't enough words to adequately express how wonderful it feels to have Hope again. To be seeing progress. And to have found a community of like-minded people here in Blogland, and my online friends. People for whom weight loss is not a "hobby", but it is life or death.
I choose to live.
From Dr Phil's book: "If you program yourself and your environment in such a way as to support your goals and actions, then you have programmed your world to help you lose weight, to sustain your commitment, and to live your life in a meaningful, purposeful driven way."
My verse for today: "Let the light of your face shine upon us, O Lord."
My quote for today: "Years may wrinkle the skin, but to give up enthusiasm wrinkles the soul." --Samuel Ullman
Enjoy the Journey,
Loretta
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7 comments:
What a thoughtful and wise action by your husband! Deb
Hi Deb,
Yep, after 32 years of marriage, he still manages to surprise me now and again! :-D
Loretta
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I love it! I remember seeing an episode of The Biggest Loser in season 7 where the contestants had to carry the amount of weight they had lost and throw it over a wall. It made them realize their accomplishments. I think what your hubby did was a wonderful way to help you realize how much you've accomplished so far!
Your man is AWESOME!!! I still brag about finding you on the blogs - you are a star!!!
Amazing feat! You should be proud.
Lisa
DEBBIE: I've seen those episodes, too. Always impressive. And for anyone with a smaller loss who needs a "boost", I'd say fill a suitcase with books til it weighs the equivalent of what they've lost, and then try to lift it! Really amazing how heavy it feels
JOANNE: Awww, that's a sweet thing to say... about us both!
LISA: I would have to yes, sort of. Because it's tempered with how far I still have to go, 159 MORE pounds. But at least I am sure now that I pretty much know how and am determined not to stop til I get there. That helps!
OH! I just remembered... we had your homemade eggnog at Christmas... wowee!! Thank you. :-)
Loretta
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Words cannot describe how happy I am for you. I understand what you're experiencing---and I read your blog and realize---You completely "get it" in every single way. You are such a wonderful inspiration my friend. Thank you so much,
My best always
Sean
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