Wednesday, June 16, 2010

DAY 311 Letting Go of Pride & Embracing Change

Hi Journal & Friends,

I'm still thinking on Change, and the changes I am working to make in my Time and Priorities. And once again, I stumbled upon another aspect of myself that I'm not too thrilled with.

I know I am a detail person, and rather like the benefits of that... but, I can also be too perfectionistic. TOO detailed, if you will. I need to lighten up on that, when it comes to my daily posting.

From the start, I wrote my blog to help me stay focused on a daily basis. That's why I made that commitment, between me and God, to post daily. But I also wanted it to be a place of encouragement and hope for others. I mean, if I can do it, at my age and size, and after all my past failed attempts, then ANYBODY could do it! And I wanted to pass on that hope.

I got into the habit of trying to make most posts "complete". When I talked about the principles that helped me, especially in the beginning months, I tried to make each one a complete thought on the subject, in a way that I hoped would give someone a "tool" that they could take away and use... that would help them on their own journey. I didn't want to just post an account of my boring days. Trust me, my life is not all that exciting... at least not yet! ;-)

I don't know... I suppose it's the teacher in me coming out. I've taught in the past, have organized lessons, and once the art curriculum for a whole semester at a small private school. But, I need to stop thinking that way... to just relax and be more "casual".

If anyone is still in the earlier stages of their own journey, and is still looking for tools and methods, they could always go back into the archives and read from the first few months... it's all there, all the basics that launched me on this leg of my journey. After that, it's just tweaking it as I went. 

Then again... part of me says "Who do you think you are, telling anyone how to do anything??" There are so many successful weight loss bloggers out there, and they are farther along than I am!

Anyway, that's the new emphasis here. I need to let go of my pride, and stop thinking each post has to be "all that", LOL!  And I need to Embrace Change.

But I can't help it, I just gotta include pictures!

From Dr Phil's book: "That's your priority. You must  hold yourself to a higher standard now. You cannot be wishy washy."

My verse for today: "My God is my Rock, in whom I take refuge."

My quote for today: "Always be a first rate version of yourself instead of a second rate version of somebody else." --Judy Garland

Enjoy the Journey,



The Brown Recluse said...

I'm just always glad to hear from you...short entry or long...or detailed, or whatever! Keep writing! :D

Christina said...

"There are so many successful weight loss bloggers out there, and they are farther along than I am!"

LORETTA!!! Drop that attitude, now! You are not allowed to put yourself down like that. Even if what you wrote were true, you shouldn't write that! How much weight have you lost? 124 pounds? Um, I have trouble thinking of a blog I read where the blogger has lost more than you. You work so hard, and you have come so far. You've done this in spite of so many obstacles! I challenge you to write a post on how far you've come (SOOOOO far!!) and on how different your life and lifestyle are now. Talk yourself up! How good does it feel to be so successful with your weight loss? What you're doing is amazing, and you need to give yourself credit.

M Pax said...

I'm with Christina. You are being passive-aggressive with yo'self. I believe I've said before, 'never compare yourself to anybody else.' NEVER.

Your posts remind me where I've been and work I still have to do. You inspire me. So just be you. You are the inspiring part and more interesting than you think.

Just keep rocking on. Find a way to shake yo'self out of yo' funk. Do something just for you and make yourself happy. Even if it seems frivilous, just do it.

Anonymous said...

Hmmm. I think the advice to "Just be you." is right on. you don't need to be a teacher. You can post your real feelings and real reflectons and real questions--no lesson plan needed for real life, WLW.

I have to disagree with those who say you "shouldn't write that," tho. Regardles of whatever THAT is. If it's how you feel--you should write it. That's what blogging is about or it's rather a waste of time, isn't it?

The only way you get to be the best you is to--well, be you. :) You're on to something with this post, friend, you are. Keep going.


JoAnn said...

Loretta, I absolutely LOVE your pictures. I don't know how many times I've shown them to my kids. Like you, I'm an animal lover.

So, you keep posting your real thoughts and feelings and we'll try to help you along.

Sheilagh (60 x60) said...

You are an inspiration, short or long, your posts are wonderful. Stop being so hard on yourself, give yourself a hug xxx

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