Good afternoon Journal & Friends,
It's been an interesting week! The "word" of the week for me seems to have been Balance.
After 490 days, you'd think I would have that one nailed. I'm reading a good book that says the key to effectiveness is balance.
On my particular journey, that would mean a balance between the internal work and the external work. The introspective part, and the DOING part.
Honestly, I had to re-read that section over and over, until I finally saw how it applied to me, and the mistakes I've been making.
The reason I said it's been an interesting week is because I've had a very NICE week, with less turbulence and drama, yet haven't gotten that balance thing right yet. I've been focusing on the stuff I mentioned last week, stuff that affects the mental part. I even made yet another checklist to remember to squeeze it all in:
- chapter from my current book
- motivational flipcards
- review goals list outloud
- my music
- visualization at bedtime
- daily thru-the-Bible-in-one-year plan
- chapter from an art book
- visit an art blog
And it's been so much fun! I am totally enjoying it. I feel energized, like my spirit is being fed.
Yet... I let the exercise dwindle, and didn't write down calories every day. Aaggh! Out of balance again.
One thing that was wonderful this week: I got to go to church last Sunday for the first time in over a year. It was glorious!
Our church leased a building that used to be a furniture store, and they finally finished the renovations. They kept the handicapped bathroom, so now I can go (no pun intended). :-)
Being morbidly obese robs us in so many ways. This is just one more reason to work towards health and strength.
And once again I have stepped outside my Comfort Zone... I suppose it was time to shake things up again. I was asked to be a Greeter at the door at church... and I said yes! Eek!! That brings up all sorts of insecurities.
Like... my lifelong embarrassment over my teeth. I was given antibiotics as a child that caused spotted discoloration on my teeth. It is all the way through, not surface, so bleaching has no effect. It would take many thousands of dollars in porcelain veneers to fix.
And until recently, I have never stood up for myself enough to go into debt over something so "vain". Yet I have wanted this all my life, to get them fixed. At times over the years people have said hurtful things to me about their appearance. And really... our smile is the first thing people notice.
Confession time? Okay... the ONLY thing I have EVER fixed when I post a photo of myself is my teeth. It is that much of an embarrassment to me.
So... for me to be a Greeter?? Yes... for me it is a big deal. I want to make it about others, making them feel welcome and not about me and my self-consciousness.
Growth, I hope. :-)
From Dr Phil's book: "You must never relax your watchfulness over your thoughts, feelings and actions."
My verse for today: "This is the Lord, we trusted in him; let us rejoice and be glad in his salvation.
My quote for today: "A well-developed sense of humor is the pole that adds balance to your steps as you walk the tightrope of life." --William Arthur Ward
Enjoy the Journey,