I know I posted this video last August... but like I've said before, I write what *I* need to read. And I needed the reminder.
I may be slow. I may make lots of mistakes. I may need to get up after falling over and over... But I will not quit. I WILL finish. God has never given up on me, and so I won't give up, either.
I got a call yesterday from my big brother on Southern California. Daddy isn't doing well. Intubated for breathing, putting in a feeding tube... all that. The consensus is, he won't be here in September, when the family gathering had been planned. I wrote about that last Friday, in my Shooting For The Moon post, where I shared my goal of getting Lighter and Stronger so I could make the trip in September.
So you can imagine how I feel now. Even if I just whipped out the ol' credit card and charged it all, even if Jim could demand the time off work... doesn't matter. I am still not physically able yet to make the trip. And that stirs up painful memories of all the other times in life I missed out, due to weight. It's tough... I can't change that, it's history, but it's still hard to swallow. All I can do is use it as fuel to propel me forward. To look ahead, not back.
I don't know what will happen. Daddy is a tough ol' bird. He is 89, and took a new bride last year. And up until a few months ago was still working part time, as a Federal Judge. So for all I know, he could just decide to hang around til September. He's like that... he makes up his mind, bang goes the gavel, and that's that. He was excited about meeting his great-granddaughter for the first time in September, when we all were to come down from Oregon to SoCal.
Either way... I will finish this race. And I will either see Daddy here... or There.
Never Ever Give Up In Life--Derek Redmond
From Dr Phil's book: "There is rarely a time in your life when all is at peace and balance. That's neither good nor bad; it is simply the ebb and flow of how life works. To be alive means to experience emotions, painful or otherwise."
My verse for today: "Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God."
My quote for today: "Most of the important things in the world have been accomplished by people who have kept on trying when there seemed to be no hope at all." --Dale Carnegie
Complete the Journey,