Hi Journal & Friends,
Do you ever have days when you just "feel fat" ?!
Didn't matter how much you had lost, didn't matter what you were wearing, didn't matter how much spackle you plastered on your face to make yourself feel better. You. Just. Feel. Fat.
I felt that way this last Sunday. Honestly, if I hadn't committed to being a Greeter, I'm sure I would've wimped out and hid in my house.
But I went. Thankfully, when I clipped on my name tag, I forgot about "me" and was able to reach out to make people feel welcome. But when we found our seats as the worship music began...again with the "I feel fat" thing. Sigh...
Then...something extraordinary happened. All I can say is... it felt like I had been given a gift. Because I had tried to work on my attitude, my self-talk, all that stuff we love to blog about... all to no avail.
First, let me explain. In our church worship, sometimes the music is slow and reverent and beautiful.
Sometimes it is faster and rejoicing and bursting with gratitude and joy.
Sometimes the violin plays a haunting solo... and sometimes all the instruments burst forth in exhuberance!
Sometimes there are dancers, and sometimes there are banners or silk flags or ribbons, all celebrating in honor of The King of Kings.
The different colors have different meanings. For instance, gold symbolizes the presence of God, majesty, glory of God, and faith.
I had my camera cuz I was going to take a picture of Roxie the service dog, but she didn't come that day. But... I didn't feel it respectful to photograph the worshippers, so the pics here are from the net, to give you an idea of what I'm trying to describe.
And here was the gift to ME: over in the corner was a quiet lady about my age. She was dancing a slow, graceful, beautiful and elegant dance, gently swirling a length of shimmering gold silk fabric. It made me stop in my tracks, and tear up.
She was stunning. Reverent and so graceful...
AND SHE WAS OVERWEIGHT!!!!
But I'm telling you, she was as light on her feet and graceful as any prima ballerina I'd ever seen. And at moment, I felt loved and accepted, just as I was. And I no longer "felt" oh-so-fat.
I felt like that Gift to me was the beginning of the turnaround of my "hard times". It shifted my thinking... opened me to change, and was so encouraging.
From Dr Phil's book: "Slow your thoughts down, and listen attentively."
My verse for today: "I will be glad and rejoice in you; I will sing the praises of your name, O Most High."
My quote for today: "You have to be pretty stupid to think there isn't a Supreme Being to put all this together. Do you think that man could ever make a heart that is indestructible? Do you think that man could make a calculator like your brain?" --Jack Lalanne
Enjoy the Journey,