Thursday, January 16, 2020

Jan 16th.... Celebrating and Learning


I can’t believe it’s been this long since I last posted. Oh well. 2019 was a rough year, health wise. But somehow (to my amazement and gratitude), I’ve finally passed the 200 lbs lost mark. 

206 to be exact. Highest weight 460. Current weight 254. Final goal 199.

Gee. That amazes even me. It took years, but I’m finally there. I was thinking today… at first I felt really proud of myself. Yet found there was also a sadness. If I had only done this sooner….You know, all those regrets.

 So please, kiddos, don’t do as I did. Do it sooner, not later. I need to just accept that disappointment over waiting so long, and then get on with being happy about the progress. What’s the cliche we throw around? Progress, not perfection. 

No Time to Monkey Around
by Retta


I discovered a lovely new artist on FB that I am following. Pat Butynski is her name. She is going through some rough times herself, but still makes wonderful art. She has this ability to be in touch with and honest with her feelings  (grief over losing her Mother last week, and her own heath issues).

Honestly, I don’t think I’ve really learned how to integrate the down times, and feel them, and still have the Joy. So I tend to focus on only the Joy, and try to ignore the hard stuff.

 But she writes beautifully of this. I’m listening Lord. Teach me.




 Grabbing a cuppa sunshine - 6” x 8” mixed media rough sketch study 
by  Pat Butynski




 Later Gators,

Retta

Edited to add: I realized today (Sunday the 19th) that I wrote here I had "waited so long". Uh,,, no. I tried repeatedly all my life. Just with methods that didn't work for ME. So, let's just say I regret not having found MY way sooner. It's true. And I like that better. :-)



7 comments:

Nixpix said...

So glad you updated! I love your new picture and your optimism. You look beautiful and your beautiful spirit shines thru. Be sure and post when you get to 199!! So happy for you.

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Retta said...

What a sweet comment, Nixpix! Thank you so much. I will absolutely post when I get there, and shoot of fireworks and dance the cancan!! ha ha ha

Jan said...

I got a new phone and forgot my password so looked in passwords and all kinds of stuff popped up i guess from cloud. One was your Blog. Brought back many memories. I could have posted almost the same post as yours. Starting weight when first met you same, then slowly lost some then had heart attack and got down to 390 but couldnt seem to move beyond that. Then couple years ago got very sick with septic blood,blatter an kidney infection when i got up i fell was in hospital then rehab (where i fell again) for over a month. I was now 360 told my son i had to do something more then i was necause people can hardly help you at that weight when you fall. And I have Meniere's syndrome and dizzy all the time. So I started again and finally got to 249 but have not been able to get further been year and a half Feb.14th I go up and down 5# cant get around very well when i see young people who are heavy i think the same as you. I'll be 72 May15 there is so much I still want to do. So after reading your post decided I'm going back to The YMCA swimming pool it is warm and will help bone pain plus can walk in pool. My goal is also 190! We can do this. Glad i found you again my friend.hope you remember me.😍

Retta said...

Hi Jan! Absolutely I remember you and Dave. I get on FB sometimes, and see your posts. I've been meaning to check out that High Praise church online service, since I can rarely go now.

That really is something, how many similarities with our journeys. I even copied you and went thru the cancer detour (ha, black humor there). Wow, Meniere's. Familiar with it, since that new artist I am following on FB that I wrote about in this post, Pat, has it and has written about it!

I sure know how you feel about it being hard for others to help us by being heavy. I worked my behind off to lose weight before my cancer surgery in 2018. Got down to 301. That sure helped with recovery.

But still in Feb 2019 when I fell and hurt both shoulders, Jim was not able to get me up. Had to call 911 and have 2 guys haul me up. Sooo embarrassing.

I had my small stroke 2 months later.... and on it goes. Now last Thursday a serious car crash. Nothing broken, but cuts, huge bruises and pain. Sigh... I was "only" 247, but it was so hard. Jim said just think how much harder this would have been if you had been in the 400's. Boy, that made me think, and thank God for his protection, too.

One thing you said stood out in neon to me... it's what I say all the time: there is so much I still want to do. Yes, me too! I'm not done yet. No doctor can stamp me with an expiration date, only God knows my time.

It's wonderful hearing from you. I'll keep an eye out on FB, and pop in to say hello! Hugs to you, Jan.
Retta

Oh, PS: did I ever tell you I finally got a little gallery up online? At Fine Art America. I'm at: RettaStephenson.com
It's been put on hold since my cancer surgery and all this other stuff that piled on. But I'm excited about getting going again. I envision a new series. The animals will be wearing tiny crowns. I love Psalm 103, where the Lord said he crowns us with love and compassion. I am so deeply grateful for that!

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