That makes 27 lbs since the beginning of Feb this year. In the past, I would dampen that joy with regrets:
I wish I had done this sooner.
Why did I re-gain?
I've been at the weight before.
Etc etc etc.
No more. I embrace the joy and hope.
Today I attend a funeral. I'm holding a ceremony, and saying goodbye to a presence that has been with me as long as I remember:
Regrets.
Today I lay them to rest.
Eulogy for My Lifelong Regrets
Today I say goodbye to My Lifelong Regrets. We’ve been together a long time, but now it’s time I let you go.
You taught me a lot.
You taught me about Humility, because my life didn’t turn out as I thought it would, yet I still have much for which to be thankful.
You taught me about Compassion, because I know how it feels to struggle and fail, repeatedly.
You taught me about Determination, because though I fell - a LOT - somehow by God’s grace, I got up again and kept going.
You taught me about Focus, because though there is pain in life, I can still choose to focus on the beauty, joy and goodness that is there also.
You taught me Gratitude, because though I didn’t get all I wanted, such as children and grandchildren, I got Love.
But one thing you did not teach me was Brevity.
No one is perfect. ;-)
Enjoying the journey, and letting go of regrets,
Retta
