It goes:
There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under the heavens:
a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,
a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.
I know most will skim over that due to time pressures, but I've slowed down many times and read it carefully, thinking about each line. And I think I know why I haven't felt the need lately to write on this blog.
See, I've been here for YEARS, asking questions, searching for answers. And now it feels like I have no more questions. It's that simple. I feel at peace that I already have enough answers... now I simply need to DO what I know needs to be done. Sure, there is always more to learn, but that's not my point. My point is: it's time to DO.
- I've done the search for Understanding, in regards to my past.
- I've done the tough job of accepting TOTAL responsibility for my situation.
- I've made huge changes in what kind of nutrition I eat on a regular basis.
- I've made peace with the fact that this is permanent; I can't "use" food like a drug, and still be healthy.
- I've learned that in order for this to be permanent, my Heart must change.
- I've decided to accept "what is", and totally let go of "what could have been."
- I've learned I need to embrace my goals and refresh the vision I have for myself.
And I feel at Peace about all that. Finally.
So I really don't have a lot to say right now. I am enjoying reading and supporting some other health/weight loss blogs, but mainly am spending my online time over at my art blog. I feel the freedom now to put my energies there. I don't need to spend tons of time looking for my answers here: I already have them, and need to DO them. Hmmm.... I said that before, didn't I?
For totally unrelated reason, this morning I was looking up word definitions, and it helped me in writing this post.
Here are some of those words:
self-centered
self-absorbed
self-indulgent
self-involved
Hmmm... see a pattern there?? Now you see why I'm tired of writing about ME??!!
Remember, this is where *I* am, after years of blogging around the same mountain. If you are just starting out, don't think I am telling YOU not to explore your own life, mind, heart, past, situation, etc. May your journey be filled with discovery and new understandings!
But for me, it's time to pursue my passions... the things that get me up in the morning, and fill my day with joy!
See ya sooner or later.
Enjoy the journey,
Loretta
